For the record, I do want my ex back, even though I was technically the one who ended our engagement. (I had terrible cold feet.) Some would say cold feet is reason enough to move on, but that is not what this blog is about. I am not debating or questioning the fate of my relationship. I am making a conscious decision about myself. I am trying to become the person I want to be. And hopefully, at the end of the month (aka the end of this blog), I'll start the see a person I like, love, and respect staring back at me in the mirror.
Who do I want to be? Right now, I would settle for someone who is busy. I wanna be so busy that I can't find the time to call my ex or to text my ex or to check twitter for my ex's status updates. He says he needs time to forgive me, so time is what I'll give him. And during that "time" I want to give myself something as well: self respect. Here's hoping I find it!
With this blog I hope to document my activities. If I have to write down my adventures, maybe I'll actually have some adventure!! Whether it's cooking, cleaning, karate, travel, or skydiving, this oh-so-boring blog will document how I'm spending my time. And hopefully, it'll document how I've gone from lying in bed wishing I would die to someone who is ready to face life head on - single or not.
